i can't sleep

I've only had 6 or 7 hours of sleep and I can't go back. I don't know why I turned on my computer to check my email-'stupid mistake. I can never find a way to take a nap either, I lay down and doze off when I hear my cellphone ringing over and over or I hear somebody calling my name or if I hear loud music from my sister that keeps me up. Dang it. Maybe I can find a way to take a nap today. I wonder if I suffer from a sleeping disorder, but maybe not-I thought I had RLS but that only lasted 2 nights. A good thing about today is that I finally get The Thin Man series-all 6 movies. I've been wanting it for months now, but everytime I look for it I can't find it cuz they're out. This time, I have one saved for me! Yay!

It's 9:02 AM and I don't think it's okay to go back to sleep cuz this is around the usual time I get up 9 or 10. I've somehow trained myself to get up no later than 10, so I could run down and watch Tyra Banks Show on weekdays...but my body thinks that the weekend is a weekday so I wake up 10 and can't go back. Maybe I shouldn't have trained myself to get up at 9 or 10, b/c when I wanna sleep in I can't-it seems as if i've lost the ablility too-then again, I guess I'm sorta preparing myself to wake up somewhat early when school starts. But I dunno...I hope I can go to sleep for a few minutes today and if I can't, I hope I can stay awake and not get tired around 4 PM or something.

Currently Listening Dusk and Summer By Dashboard Confessional see related

I thought I was gonna die today...'crazy stuff!!

'K, so I went to the braces people and I got X-rays and what not. It was so crazy when I got my mold. I was freakin out cuz I could feel that stuff going down my throat. I gagged a little and my eyes got wide and watery (no, i wasn't crying-there's a difference between having watery eyes from a weird sensation and crying from fear.) Thank God, I was okay. I actually started to pray cuz I thought I was gonna die or throw up. I closed my eyes (now correcting myself, I didn't black out for 5 seconds like I thought I did) and breathed through my nose-which was probably the problem on why I gagged. Finally it was over and I didn't have to do it again. So yeah, I thought I was gonna die cuz that stuff was thick-I kinda got a small mouth hole and you know, when you're new to something like that you can't help but feel extremely uncomfortable. I saw a girl who was about my age, who looked just as nervous as I was. She stared at me and listened as I told my mom about the mold and the x-rays and everything. So I felt a little better knowing that I wasn't the only person who had felt all nervous and scared about it. Plus, she was gonna be getting braces like me too soon, so I felt better knowing other people were gonna be on the same boat as me.

On a much better note, I'm finally gonna find the time to finished rewriting my story and planning it all out, as well as finishing up a short story I started earlier and gathering supplies for another hobby I wanna try out-scrapbooking. I found a really cute vintage Pooh Bear one that I wanna use. Yeah, I do a lot of projects at once. So I think things are goin' pretty decent now, I do find things confusing but I think they have died down some. So hopefully they stay that way for awhile. Laterz!

P.S: Oh and if anybody has any words of encouragement/advice on braces, please message me and let me know!

Paranoid

'Hope everybody had a beautiful day! (That sounds so fake, even though I don't mean it to be.)

Mine was good. I spent all day out of the house which is good, I guess. I enjoyed my lunch and had a lot of fun getting Cheaper by the Dozen and The Best Years of Our Lives-two Myrna Loy films. Plus I talked to my older sis, so that was fun. I was on Youtube an hour ago or so, watching a S Club 7 episode. "Oh my gosh," I said when Bradley and Jon tried to out do each other on drinks for the customers at the new club the band members had bought. That's when I saw a little roach on my wall. (Everybody who knows me good knows that I HATE bugs, which is one reason I always try to be in inside my house before dark on summer nights and why I've never been to camp.) "Oh my gosh!" I gasped. I knew I had to be calm, cool and collective. So I sucked in my breath and counted to five (to calm myself down and let things soak in before I lose my mind) then I ran downstairs. And my mom helped me kill it. But now, I'm a little paranoid-I dunno how I'm gonna sleep or use the restroom now. I know that sounds like  but I can't help it, that I know of anyway. I think I'll be okay. I cleaned up the two pairs of socks from under my bed and my room is pretty clean.

On a better note, tomorrow is Father's Day! Yay! (Whatever happened to Kid's Day or something? ) And the comin' week I get to have my teeth checked so the orthodontist can see how much braces will cost for me and what needs to be done. I've never had braces before obviously, so I'm sorta nervous but excited at the same time. My sis had 'em and she survived them, so I guess I can too, right? I'm calm about it, I just pray I don't need an expander-even though my sis said that when she one it wasn't that bad.

Well I'm just talking a lot now and I'll probably be going on and on if I don't quit, so I'll leave it at this. I'll update again later. 'Hope everybody has a good Father's Day and stay safe!